Long story short:
The GOOD things about being away are I've been sleeping!!!! Well that and getting more done around the house. Our land of boxes and messes is almost organized if not really ever 100% clean (between battling bad migraines and oh-so-low energy).
Miss Mouse expresses it best:
YAWN!
By far, the loveliest thing is that C and me and Mouse are making lots of time for each other and all 3 of us are more in love than ever. :-D GRIN :-D (I know: BARF! hey?) ;o)
But the ODD things are that... after I fell of the map, I somehow lost my creative self almost entirely (maybe it was the extreme guilt about falling off the map? not sure)... the most surprising & odd thing was that I lost my "internet self" (I lost my online voice) so much so that I quite honestly didn't know how to even begin to write a post to you all--even though I must have thought of writing it hundreds of times. I was just so sadly STUCK.
However, I think perfectionism & insecurity habitually scares me away from doing what I want (and need) to do--and it may be a very long while until I figure out what is making me generally ill-- so my new motto is...
"make yourself"
(make myself face challenges one crawlin' step at a time, make myself work through illness, make myself over anew... all while making myself take time for the stuff that I never used to...)
hence I thought I'd just make myself write to you sweethearts, already! ...even though it is sort of scary after being gone so long. [And despite the possibility this may not be remotely coherent or complete, since I'm writing it during a migraine extraordinaire.]
Anywho, I don't know if/when I'll be back to blogging/crafting, but I am dabbling on the computer again, experimentally:
- ..I'm trying desperately to answer new & old emails (I am so very sorry if I have missed yours!)
- ...I put some old project photos up on flickr, because I wanted to be a part of the new Little Paper Shop flickr pool there...
- ...I added a new page on the ol' blog (called my clips) I'm using clipmarks to gather inspiration online & hopefully get crafting again.
- ...my aunt Maggie (who is way way WAY too good to me and extremely artistic) gifted me with the summer course flying lessons by Kelly Rae Roberts. A course on finding your creative wings and building a creative business. It was a delight. (I am so lucky!) I'm looking forward to trying to put it into practice. I dream of collage making (and selling) and gathered all the supplies , but am at the chickening out phase. How to get started...? :o)
My touchstone lately is a philosophy shared by a lovely friend in email: WYC, WYC "what you can, when you can" so I'm going to go with that for now...
Well, that's my ramble on where I'm at. I'm sorry it's been so very overdue and that I don't have plans for a new blog schedule at all...
...but I am most certainly thinking of You
With Love,
Mel
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